Magicians season 5 episode 12

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When their emotions get to be too much, the group breaks into song due to the side effects of a spell, the couple loses something precious to them, and Santa makes a guest appearance on The Magicians Season 5 Episode 12, “The Balls.”

The penultimate episode before the series finale is hands down amazing as the magicians work together to secure the seed from the couple, but also bond through song. Two people who bonded the most, though, is Alice and Eliot.

The arc that Alice and Eliot have had with one another throughout the series is pretty amazing and goes to show how growing as a person can change you. After and up to Quentin’s death Alice and Eliot didn’t have a healthy relationship, but over the season, they’ve overcome their issues and somewhat become friends.

The Magicians - Season 5 Episode 12 - The Balls

The number one moment, hands down, from “The Balls” is Alice and Eliot’s duet as she’s planning on leaving because she can’t handle the emotions. Instead of pulling a typical Eliot and trying to talk to Alice while still emotionless, he drinks his feelings again and works with her through song to show her that she’s not alone.

This scene is remarkable in storytelling and in how they both truly feel and is such a sentimental moment because they’ve both been through some tough things, and one thing they can bond over is the loss of Quentin. For now and always, they will have one another there. I can safely say that Alice and Eliot are friends, and there’s no denying it.

When many shows do a musical episode most of the time, the main characters don’t acknowledge the fact that they’re doing the singing, which is why The Magicians pulls it off even better. Instead of making it a passive moment to speed time up and express emotion, the crew singing all together is a plot device used to save the day and defeat the golems, it’s fantastic.

The Magicians - Season 5 Episode 12 - The Balls

The biggest twist of the episode is how the most feared people on earth are trying to build their own planet so that they can have a child. I mean, c’mon, that’s the big plan? That’s the reason why you have killed so many people when adoption exists? Try again.

I don’t believe that the couple is telling the truth one bit, but at this point, it doesn’t matter because they can’t do anything without the seed, and Fen’s coochie is currently protecting it. Along with that, Margo shot up the panel they had, so they’re severely out of luck.

One thing this episode isn’t lacking is emotion; first, Alice and Eliot getting deep with one another, and now Julia trying to reunite Penny and his mother; feelings everywhere!

The Magicians - Season 5 Episode 12 - The Balls

I feel for Penny the most because, in the end, he has his mother turn him away once again, and this time it feels like it could be for good. All he ever did was blame himself for making his mother crazy, and it’s something that he’s taken to heart, and now he’s doing the same thing again.

It’s sad that the only thing holding Penny and his mother from being together is his powers, even when they don’t work. Whatever bond travelers have with their mothers, it’s so powerful that it makes the mother go insane because she acquires their abilities and eventually goes mad.

It’s sweet that she can send a photo with Julia of the two of them from when he was a child, showing that she’s kept it and thought of him for a long time, but the way she rejects him, again, is horrendous. Penny watches as his mother is told of a solution to her hearing voices and is explained why it’s happening, only to walk away once again. Penny doesn’t deserve that.

The Magicians - Season 5 Episode 12 - The Balls

This season has been one wild ride, but I’ve loved every minute of it and hope that in next week’s finale, we finally get to meet Julia’s child.

Until then, it’s time for Santa to save the day.

Other Thoughts:

  • Fen putting the seed in her vagina to keep it warm is so crazy and had me scream laughing at my TV.
  • I’m not sure if that’s Jade Tailor’s real voice or not, but hot damn am I in love with Kady’s voice.

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Heist preparation begins in the New York penthouse courtesy of Marina, who recounts the failed attempt to retrieve the World Seed from the Couple during the Harmonic Convergence. Considered one of the most secure magical facilities, The Nave is protected by a jamming spell that prevents battle magic, wards that prevent traveling in and out, and increased security to prevent scams and physical altercations. Behavior is strictly enforced by the hotel’s bellhops – golems that escort magicians out if they break any of the rules. Additionally, The Nave is home to an impenetrable vault, located in the basement – the very same vault that Marina and her team hoped to crack during the Convergence. While the heist was successful (as far as cracking the code and gaining entrance goes), without the increased magical power of the surge, the endeavor took too long, resulting in dire repercussions for Marina’s team courtesy of the Nave bellhops.

Despite Marina’s careful planning, the vault did not contain the World Seed, bringing the magicians back to step one: planning, beginning with images of the World Seed instruction manual that was formerly in Alice’s possession. False information was the key failure in Marina’s plan according to Fen, who reveals that the Seed must be stored at 99 degrees with 99 percent humidity – information obtained from Quentin’s lost page, a manual written in Fillorian script. With that knowledge, it becomes clear that the Couple would never keep the Seed there, as, in the freezing cold temperatures of the vault, it would die.

Though Marina is quick to dismiss the magicians, they are a step ahead; not only do they know where the seed isn’t, but they have surveyed the outside of the hotel and uncovered that one room is 30 degrees warmer when compared to all of the others. With a location in sight courtesy of the heist book (opened to reveal a beautiful 3D rendering of The Nave, rather than a set of plans), further preparation commences in the form of a connection to Magnus Delacourte (top hedge on the west coast – the very same man that the World Seed was originally taken from by George and Paloma Ball, otherwise known as the Couple, in a knock-off incubator bag).

Pieces bearing the magicians faces are placed on the 3D diagram to indicate the plan – infiltrate the Couple’s room after forcing the guard out in a multi-part plan that involves dropping the temperature in the room and cutting the landline (cellphones don’t work in The Nave). With the guard out of the way, the magicians can move in and steal the Seed with their own incubator.

Marina is quick to point out flaws – answered quickly and efficiently. Both teams will need to work at the same time from two different locations without easy communication, during which Zelda suggests the Conductor Spell – a spell created by a blind musician, wherein the musicians can only hear the conductor while singing. The spell is two-fold: not only does it offer a means of unexpected communication to potentially pull the heist off, but it creates a need for the final musical episode of the series. With Marina’s knowledge of the hotel, Zelda passes off an enchanted baton, giving her power over the entire heist through music, beginning with a test run.

Just as the spell is about to be tested, Sir Effingham makes an appearance, shotgun in hand. Pulled into the influence of the spell by proximity, Effingham was hoping to send a “hero” out to assassinate Julia Wicker after the revelation that the magicians are responsible for Fillory’s impending apocalypse. The outbreak turns into an impromptu musical led by the Fillorian questing beast himself in a rendition of Nick Lowe’s Cruel to Be Kind, which ends with a promise from Josh to kill Julia to rid the magicians of an outside influence.

A collective surge of emotion, paired with finicky circumstances resulted in the impromptu musical number, revealing minor flaws in the spell. Transference isn’t between the conductor and the magicians alone, but between everyone. With a new plot twist (song induced by emotion), Alice proposes the use of emotion bottles – a plan that had catastrophic consequences in season one, but that may work here to allow for a clear flow of communication while preventing bellhop detection, as the golems work off of emotion.

With a full plan in motion, the scene transitions to Penny and Julia (the only two magicians not in attendance at the apartment) who are battling their own problem: Julia’s pregnancy and its side effects. Turns out Julia has taken it upon herself to visit Penny’s mother in a mental facility in Connecticut, only to be greeted by a physician, not a patient, in Neela Adiyodi (Meera Simhan).

As Julia and Penny contemplate his mother’s unexpected health, the magicians begin step one of the heist. Emotion bottles in hand, Eliot, Alice, Kady, Margo, Josh and Fen climb out of a suitcase in a suite at The Nave, escorted by Pete. The hedge that also goes by Lovelady begins his part of the plan – distracting the Couple with a proposition on magical enchantments.

With the duo distracted, Margo places a housekeeping door hanger on the Couple’s door, allowing her, Fen and Josh to slip in without notice when the housekeeper leaves. As Josh and Margo locate the knock-off incubator, Fen notices that the Couple has been translating the World Seed page incorrectly, pocketing the notes to look over later.

As the trio move on to the next room, a tripped lock alerts the guard, who turns out to be Psycho Fogg. It comes as no surprise that the Couple is alerted immediately by hotel staff, who then arrive to escort Pete out of the facility due to deceit.

Just as Eliot, Alice and Kady make their move to the basement, plans are diverted when Marina informs the trio that Team Incubator has been captured. En route to save the isolated group, the trio run into a bellhop searching for unauthorized visitors. Knocked down, Alice restores her emotion to fight the hotel staff when Kady and Eliot are placed in choke holds, resulting in a brief musical moment by Alice that renders the bellhop unconscious due to an empath overload.

Meanwhile, the Couple come face to face with the invading magicians, who have been tied up by Fogg seventeen. Marina listens in as Fen lays out the truth: there will be no new world because the Couple is on track to kill the World Seed due to an unsuccessful translation. Given the hostage situation, Fen agrees to help the Couple with the World Seed in exchange for the magicians’ freedom. With Marina in the background, the diversion offers the perfect opportunity, leaving Eliot to help with Alice’s emotional overload while Kady confronts Fogg.

Alone, Eliot drinks half of his emotion vial so that he can talk to Alice. The conversation, during which Alice reveals that she can’t stop thinking about the torture she endured at the hands of the Couple, turns into another emotional song, this time a duet in the form of Peter Gabriel and Kate Bush’s Don’t Give Up.

As Eliot and Alice move past their emotions, Fen offers advice on the World Seed, starting with intention. In order to make the seed grow, it needs to know exactly what the Couple wants and why. A lie will result in refusal. The duo reveal the truth to Fen easily – the Couple were cursed due to their actions on Earth and are unable to have children; they want to start a new world so that they can have children (a surprising plot twist, as pointed out by Fen before she is dragged off again).

With the idea of children in mind, the scene transitions to the medical center, where Penny confronts his mother for the first time since childhood. The truth is revealed shortly afterward. Neela was diagnosed with a latent psychological disorder shortly after giving birth to Penny, though the circumstances were strange. The voices went away when her son was sent into foster care. Whenever he came back, so did the static, resulting in his life in the adoption system. The conversation lays bare Neela’s pain, offering just a glimpse of the regret that she feels for leaving her son – a moment that is interrupted when she hears a voice calling her in the distance, another episode triggered by his close proximity.

Unsure where to go next, Penny meets up with Julia, who has been viewing the security cameras monitoring the facility with a magical lens. When Penny and Neela are in close proximity, a magical thread binds them.

Meanwhile, Kady offers herself up to Fogg, flask in hand containing single malt whiskey and Archie – a drug undetectable until he takes a sip. A forced trip to the Etheric Realm allows the captured magicians (Kady included) to escape, as Henry Fogg, regardless of form, is not prohibited from leaving once there.

With two problems solved, another is presented by Marina. Pete was escorted out of The Nave alongside the magicians’ escape route via the suitcase. Turns out the plan to trigger the fire alarm may be viable, after all, assuming Alice’s plan (delivered via a magical paper airplane) doesn’t work.

Back on track, the magicians head to their designated locations: Alice and Eliot to the basement, Kady, Josh and Margo ready to move toward the Seed when Anna shows up, led to the apartment by a hidden locator spell. Baton snapped in rage, the magicians find themselves without a conductor inside The Nave. Relationship severed between Anna and Marina, Zelda mends the baton, getting the mission back online just as Julia and Penny leave the medical center alone.

As Alice and Eliot acquaint themselves with the temperature control panel, a hidden bellhop appears, threatening the entire heist until the magician downs the rest of his emotion bottle, allowing the duo to temporarily stun the golem and change the temperature with a rendition of The Ramones’ I Wanna Be Sedated. Mid-song, a transition is made to Team World Seed, who unleash their bottled emotions to move toward Fen when confronted with more of the empath bellhops.

Temperature successfully changed, the scene transitions to the Ball suite, where Fen is writing down a new translation of the page. As temperatures cool down, Paloma leaves the room only to be confronted with Josh, Kady, and Margo. Hostage obtained, the magicians enter the room only for Fen to be held at knife point by George. With the Seed in danger, Margo convinces the Couple to allow her to move the Seed into the incubation bag…whereupon the heating spell fizzles out. Knives dropped, Margo shoots George, giving Fen the opportunity to stash the seed and down her emotion bottle.

Escape in sight, the magicians head to the rooftop whereupon it is revealed that Alice wrote a letter to Santa Claus (who escaped magical detainment last season), offering them the escape they so desperately need.

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The Magicians Season 5 Episode 12

The Magicians should be applauded for its commitment to including a musical episode each season, and the fact that “The Balls” comes just before the end of the series makes this one particularly poignant. In that sense, centering the songs around emotions, bottled or otherwise, was an appropriate choice. However, combining the musical elements with a heist, another tried and true narrative in this show, may have had a diluting effect on both fan favorite formats rather than doubling the enhancement. Nevertheless, with the world seed in hand (or in… you know), the finale is bound to be legitimately world changing.

The setup for the heist was, as usual, a high point of the episode. The Magicians is good at making sure everyone has something to contribute. Here, for example, we had Marina describing her failed attempt at stealing the world seed while Fen chimed in with her knowledge of Fillorian script, Margo used her knowledge of fashion, and Zelda came up with the conductor spell idea in order to establish communications in a no-cell-phone environment and to provide a context for the spontaneous singing. Even Sir Effingham, wonderfully played by Sean Maguire (the same actor portraying the Dark King, in case readers weren’t aware), got in on the action with a wonderful lead vocal in “Cruel to be Kind.”

The Nave hotel was also well conceived, although the rules seemed a bit arbitrary in their restrictions (no cell phones, but revolvers work?). The empathic golems were an especially nice touch given that they forced the team to bottle their feelings while paradoxically allowing them to use them as weapons in some version of a Michael Jackson dance video. Kudos to The Magicians, in fact, for reserving the killer voice of Jade Tailor’s Kady for the triumphant “I Wanna Be Sedated” in the final moments of the heist rather than having her overshadow the other vocalists as in previous seasons.

The Magicians Season 5 Episode 13: Zelda’s death

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It was all fun and games, but is it enough?

Crazy heist plus musical episode was sure to equal a slam dunk of entertainment, but when that episode is also the penultimate of the series, well, then there's bound to be some problems.

The faults don't lie with the episode itself -- The Magicians Season 5 Episode 12 -- but rather with the story arcs and conclusion of the series.

Confused yet?

Dancing - The Magicians Season 5 Episode 12

The musical episode is a trope some series try at least once in their run.

Some are iconic, such as Buffy The Vampire Slayer Season 6 Episode 7, while others make you wish your favorite series had never attempted such a feat, such as Grey's Anatomy's Season 7 Episode 18.

Other series, such as Riverdale and yes, The Magicians, try to crank one out every season or so.

This is the show's third musical episode, though The Magicians Season 1 Episode 4 and The Magicians Season 2 Episode 9 featured "Shake It Off" by Taylor Swift and "One Day More" from the musical "Les Misérable," respectfully.

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What makes these musical episodes and numbers more successful than other shows' attempts is the fantasy of it.

In a world with magic, characters randomly breaking out into song and dance makes more sense than on non-genre shows, which has contributed to the past episodes' success.

Zelda: Well, there’s the conductor spell. Created by a conductor who was going blind so he and his orchestra could still communicate.
Josh: Wouldn’t all those voices be kind of confusing?
Zelda: Each musician only hears the conductor but never one another.
Fen: I’m totally sure I don’t understand and totally sure it’s going to work.
Alice: Why wouldn’t it set off the hotel protections?
Zelda: The spell was designed to help artists, so by nature, it’s innocuous.
Margo: You’ll be the conductor then?
Zelda: I would, but I don’t know the hotel, not like…
Alice: So wait, not only are we breaking into a hotel of horrors but our conductor has to be a psychopath.
Marina: Sociopath, technically.

The best musical episode and/or number remains The Magicians Season 4 Episode 10.

Along with the "believable" explanation why everyone is singing and dancing -- Margo is tripping hard on lizard -- the episode works because the songs correspond with the storyline instead of trying to drive it.

Margo Closeup - The Magicians Season 4 Episode 10

Based on the journey Janet takes in "The Magician's Land," Margo embarks on a quest into the desert to find a way to expel the Monster from Eliot.

Without recapping the entirety of the episode, which is worth a second watch, it's a powerful feminist and sex-positive journey that gives Summer Bishil a chance to shine like nothing else.

The songs only serve to enhance the already compelling and deeply emotional 42 minutes, rather than trying to overwhelm the story being told, which is sadly what happened here.

The songs, as fun as they were, didn't really elevate the episode.

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It seems as though the plot of the episode was devised around the songs, as opposed to the other way around.

Sure, it makes sense why the gang goes full "Glee" whenever they have an emotion, as Josh put it, but it doesn't add anything to the episode.

Margo: I think I speak for the group in wondering why the fuck did we all Chorus Line?
Alice: And I heard all of you in my head, not just Marina.
Josh: Yeah, what the hell?
Zelda: Our circumstances are unstable. Our collective surge of emotion must have broken down some of the spells’ barriers. And as for the singing, well, it was designed by a conductor, and music is the purest manifestation of feeling.
Josh: So let me get this straight, every time we have a feeling, we’re gonna go full on Glee. That doesn’t seem ideal for, you know, a heist.

It has the opposite effect as it detracts from the limited screen time viewers have left with these characters.

If this wasn't the final season, I could be more forgiving of the episode, as it still is loads of fun to watch, but with only one episode left, I feel I have to be rather critical.

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The song that worked best was Alice and Eliot's duet of "Don't Give Up."

Alice, still reeling from the trauma of George cutting off her fingers, laments how she feels like a failure for not being able to do anything to stop him.

This is particularly tough as Alice's identity has always been tied to being the best, yet in that instance, she wasn't.

With only one hand to cast with, it's understandable that Alice would want to give up.

After all, if she can no longer be the best at something, then what's the point.

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Eliot, though, goes to comfort her, explaining she can't give up just yet as she has friends to lean on and more fight left.

Eliot's words of encouragement are enough to get through to Alice, something that wouldn't have been possible a season ago.

Eliot: Alice, whatever it is, whatever you’re feeling, you can…you can just tell me.
Alice: I just can’t stop thinking about what he did to me. I was so useless, so stupid.

However, after their heartfelt conversation on The Magicians Season 5 Episode 3 where they cleared the air, it works.

The other songs worked to mixed results, but again, it still felt rather disjointed.

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The writers, though, did a better job when it came to constructing the heist.

While the heist, itself, was overly complex, all the moving parts came together and made sense.

The dry humor and insanity of everything helped offset the time-consuming nature of the plot.

It's hard to be mad at how long characters are taking to accomplish a task when there's crazy antics at every turn, whether it be a singing and dancing anthropomorphic pig, a makeout orgy in the lobby, and the realization of where the world seed ends up.

It's just good old fashioned, not at all clean fun. 

Fen profile - The Magicians Season 5 Episode 11

What the heist did lack though was stakes.

Even when characters were seemingly in trouble, there was never a doubt they were in mortal danger.

Fogg 17: Let me guess, camouflage potion? Liquid explosive? Ah, good old chloroform? Ah, goddamn scotch, but not just any scotch: Isabella’s Islay single malt. Goddamn it, who knew you had taste.
Kady: Wait no, I need that.
Fogg 17: Are you a drunk now? Well congratulations. Let me help you get back on the wagon. Now, what don’t you save us all some trouble, and tell me where the rest of your colleagues are. Goddamn it, what did you put in this?
Kady: A pharmaceutical I bought off a very helpful bartender. Street name, Archie.
Josh: What just happened?
Kady: I just sent him on a trip to the etheric realm where rules prevent Henry Fogg from leaving. Here’s hoping they’re too high to notice there’s a new one.

As light-hearted and fun the first, and undisputed best, heist on The Magicians Season 2 Episode 7 was, it also came with real consequences.

The dopplebanger was "killed" during the heist, putting Eliot's life in jeopardy, and because of how things played out, Julia ended up losing her shade.

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Here, the worst that happened was Marina getting dumped and George getting shot. 

Not the life or death consequences one may have expected, especially after the heist was built up by Marina as being essentially impossible without the harmonic convergence.

Everyone managed to get out in one piece, and no one was worse for wear.

They even had a nice getaway courtesy of Santa Claus.

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Compounding this issue was that the Couple weren't very menacing villians.

The series built George and Paloma Ball to be this evil force that would stop at nothing to get what they wanted.

Fen: The first thing you have to do is explain why you want to build a new world.
George: To you?
Fen: To the seed. It’s alive, and in order to grow, it needs to know exactly what you want and why. The seed will know if you lie and refuse to grow.
Paloma: We’ve made powerful enemies here on earth, and one cursed us, making us…
George: Unable to have children. But on a new world, beyond the reach of our enemies, we hope to have a family.
Fen: Uh OK. I have to admit that’s not a motive I could have guessed, but do you really think you’d make the best parents?

They killed their supposed best friend to get the world seed, and George had no problem torturing Alice to get the instruction manual.

Yet when it came time to live up to their reputation, they faltered.

George and Paloma - The Magicians Season 5 Episode 12

Margo, Josh, and Fen were captured instead of being killed on the spot when caught trying to steal the world seed, and they barely put up a fight when the world seed was stolen.

Sure, the Nave had its own magical restrictions in place, but I was expecting something more, even if it was a vow to hunt the group down and kill all their loved ones.

Something that would make it seem like they give a damn about losing their only chance to have a biological child.

Oh well.

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The big takeaway of the episode is that the gang got the world seed.

They went through a whole lot to get it, which involved crazy shenanigans and randomly bursting into song, but the world seed is in their possession, or rather Fen's.

Margo: Fen, where the fuck is the seed?
Josh: Why are you running so weird?
Fen: The seed is somewhere warm, very humid, even moist.
Josh: Oh, whoa.

Now, they can theoretically create a new world where they can transport all the raptured Fillorians.

The group has all the necessary pieces, but it now becomes the task of putting them all together.

Thoughtful Seb - The Magicians Season 5 Episode 8

It's quite a daunting task ahead of them.

They have to rapture all the people of Fillory into the Ark, destroy the entire land, kill the Dark King and stop him from resurrecting Lance, and create a new world, all within the span of an hour.

Plus there's still the resolution to Julia and Penny's storyline, which I'll touch on more later.

And when you factor in the happyish endings, well, that's a lot of things to get through.

Happy Margo - The Magicians Season 5 Episode 8

This sort of timetable is somewhat worrisome, as it's possible some things will be either glossed over or conveniently worked out.

Think Shadowhunters Season 3 Episode 21 and Shadowhunters Season 3 Episode 22, and then you'll get where I'm coming from.

Marina: You see? This is why I don’t hang out with you people.
Zelda: But on the bright side, we were pitch perfect.

However, judgment should be reserved for the series finale. 

Considering it's already been filmed and edited, there's not much we can do about it.

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Missing out from the craziness was Penny and Julia, who were on a mission of their own.

They're no closer to figuring out how to stop Julia from going insane once their child is born, but they did figure out why traveler mothers end up going crazy whenever they're near their children.

Some sort of magical cord tethers the mothers to their children, with the mothers taking on traveler powers, such as hearing voices, whenever the women are in range of their children.

Knowing Julia, she isn't going to rest until she finds a way to sever that connection with her unborn child. 

Julia research - The Magicians Season 5 Episode 12

She's smart as a whip, determined and will do everything in her power to make that happen

After she finds that solution, there's a decent chance Julia can replicate the effects, meaning Penny's mother Neela would no longer go insane every time she's within earshot of her son. 

Julia: You’re not crazy Neela. Look, magic is real. I’m a magician, and so is your son. But he’s a rare breed with this link that they have to their mothers. Every time they’re close by their abilities start to bleed over.
Neela: Stop, stop, stop. Just stop.
Julia: My baby has the same abilities as Penny, which means it causes the same problems.
Neela: This isn’t happening.
Julia: This is happening. Look, I swear. I know I’m asking a lot but if you could just take a chance and let me help you, you could have your son back, get to know your grandchild. Wouldn’t that be worth it?
Neela: I can’t. I can’t go through this again. It’ll kill me. Tell William I’m sorry.

Neela could have had her son back in her life and make up for lost time, but instead, she decided it wasn't even worth the risk, which is so much worse.

Neela had such regret about having to send Penny away as a child, yet when the decision of whether to be in her son's life or not presented itself once again, she chose to abandon him all over again.

Neela introduction - The Magicians Season 5 Episode 12

While I respect that she couldn't put herself through that mental instability again, Neela wasn't even interested in other alternatives.

Being physically near Penny, even for a few minutes, caused her to start hearing voices again.

But what about staying in touch electronically or video chatting with her son regularly? And those are just the non-magical options.

For Neela, it was easier just to close that chapter of her life, once and for all, than risk the normal life she has worked so hard to create after years of hearing voices.

Penny talk - The Magicians Season 5 Episode 12

Again, it's understandable, but it doesn't make it any less heartbreaking to watch, especially for Penny.

Though he hadn't dealt with the trauma of his childhood, he had buried it enough to live a semi-functional life, or as functional a life as a magician can.

Penny: I need to know everything you went through. When did you start hearing voices?
Neela: About three months into the pregnancy. At first they thought it was a chemical imbalance, but after you were born I started to get worse. They said the stress of parenting brought on a latent psychological disorder, probably one I’d inherited. The first time I had to send you away… I hear myself say that and I still can’t believe I did it. I am so sorry.
Penny: Mom, I’m OK. I need you to tell me everything you can.
Neela: The voices went away when you did, and when you came back so did they. Every time you came back, there was less and less of the little boy.
Penny: Mom, this isn’t about me.
Neela: I wanted so much to raise you, love you, protect you, but what you needed protection from was me. What?
Penny: Mom?
Neela: I’m sorry. Someone’s calling me. What is it? What do you need?
Penny: Mom, there’s no one calling you.
Neela: Of course there is. It must be one of my patients. There’s more of them. You don’t hear them? They’re screaming.
Penny: I don’t.
Neela: Oh no, no, no, no, not again. Please stop.

However, he had to go through this entire ordeal, which was retraumatizing in and of itself.

First, he had to confront the pain of being abandoned by his mother, and then deal with the guilt that he was the one, unknowingly, causing her insanity.

Penny moral support - The Magicians Season 5 Episode 10

And just when it seemed like maybe he and Neela could make amends and have a fresh start, she chose to walk away again.

It's even more painful this time because as an adult and a magician Penny knows the full extent of what's going on.

Before, it wasn't Neela's choice.

Now, it is.

Pregnant Julia - The Magicians Season 5 Episode 12

Some stray thoughts:

  • Let's all take a moment of silence to thank The Powers That Be for keeping Fen on the varsity team. Not only did she get to participate in the heist in a meaningful way, she was key in deciphering the instruction manual on how to grow the world. She even schooled the Couple with her intel.

    She was still Fen -- goofy, endearing, naive -- but she kept her newfound confidence and outspokenness from The Magicians Season 5 Episode 11, so points for continuity and great writing. It's pretty late in the game, but I'll take it.

Marina couch - The Magicians Season 5 Episode 11
  • Marina and Zelda is the spinoff I didn't know I needed. I would watch an entire show with just the two of them arguing for an hour. They're such polar opposites but have great chemistry. Their presence was enough to make me forget Charlton wasn't in this episode, and I wasn't even mad.

  • Oh, Pete and his scams. Some things never change. Since The Magicians Season 4, the guy has grown on me, namely because he's not doing Marina's bidding and screwing Julia over, so a horrific end in his case is no longer needed. 

So what did you think The Magicians Fanatics?

How did the musical episode and heist compare to previous ones?

Do you have reservations about the time management of the series finale?

Did Penny get screwed over by Neela?

Hit the comments below to let me know your thoughts. If you happened to miss the latest episode, remember you can watch The Magicians online at TV Fanatic.

Jessica Lerner was a staff writer for TV Fanatic. She retired in October 2021.


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